Heyho. This post is gonna be another random-shitty post. Whatevs I don't care, thou. This is my daily journal so why worry?
School sucks as always, especially with the new schedule, ugh. Can you imagine, on Saturday —oh c'mon! I have math, physics, and chems, in a day! Perfect subjects to end the school day. Fine then, I've to deal with that.
Things that bothers me the most is.. Why do boys on this earth is always so judgemental to girls; what we wear, do, say, others. Why can't you just accept us without asking more? I hate it, no doubt with that.
Although you can say that I'm still on my way to heal this wound but I really really really not in the mood to deal with boys. Well I'm still normal to have a crush with other boys but uhm, not now. I just can't trust em because I'm anti bull$hit, baby. I'm not giving my trust to people that easy again. I'm done with those sad-heartbroken-song, those galloons of tears.
Beware with your own mouth before you spit something, because somehow you gonna bite your own words. Note that.
Anyway, it's officially that we're now in rainy season!
been a while I'm away from here. but life has brought me up and down, well cycles of life, remember?
I'm not going to tell you that I'm fine nor messed up, heartbroken nor fallin' in love, happy nor sad; it's just.. balance.
numb, if you ask.
I don't know why I could feel like this but, I don't know. I just.. don't know.
now I got the problem that I really can't trust words from boys, BOYS. I found their words full with bull$hit. sorry not sorry.
I know it''s just the matter of time that will heal this ache. I just have to let go and accept and be grateful for everything that I already have now.
thank You, God, for giving me such a great parents&family, and bunches of great friends; they're precious!
Do not judge me for the action that I take. Here, I give you a cup of coffee, let's talk for a while. If you ask me, "Frappé or espresso?" I'll say, "espresso, please." Because you know what? I'm done with all those sweet things. Too much sweets literally kills me. It turns out all bitter and guess what?
Well, life gets harder time by time. Ass-ignments everywhere, realizing I need to be more diligent and clever eh. But I really really really need a rest, too. School sucks, as always. But my friends make it memorable.
So, here I am. Heading to the city that I hate the most; but since I HAVE to be there, and the only reason why I like that city is my friends. Just me and my dad. Then I realized something precious and priceless.
So, my dad and I were having a conversation about our family, he talked, I listened. Suddenly he said, "kalo kamu sampe digituin sama cowok lain, gak mungkin ayah maafin. Gak bakal ayah biarin anak satu-satunya ayah digituin." Then my tears fell, unexpectedly.
I know that my dad loves and will always love me. But his words made me believe that no boy would love me the way he does.
If only my dad know what you've done to me, I guess he will slap you in your face. I know you're not worth it.
hi, been a while uhm?
I'm not saying that I'm all that well but I could say that there are some distractions over me.
since you read this, I already deactivated my Twitter account because several reasons.
guess it's pretty good for me because I'm gonna write more in here.
Here I am, sitting on the car and going back to the city that I hate the most, Bandung. Where those heaps of bitter memories grew, meanwhile everybody loves that city's atmosphere.
Panggil gue Shinta,19 tahun, petite looking, memasuki semester ketiga di salah satu perguruan tinggi terkemuka di Bandung, every guy would die to date me, what else do you want me to explain? I have everything. Wait, everything? I don't know.
Tiba-tiba gue kangen sama suasana di bandara. I guess only me who's curious about every airports in the world and gladly want to go there. Pertama kali gue pergi abroad, the first airport that I'm amazed is Changi. And another reason why I love airports is the people's enthusiasm to go somewhere over the world. Dan juga, tempat dimana gue pisah sama sahabat masa kecil gue, Rama.
You guys might think, Rama&Shinta? Yes, gue tau kalo itu dari cerita wayang Ramayana atau apalah itu. Tapi, cerita gue sama Rama gak se-romantis dan penuh perjuangan itu juga kali. Well, sounds like I'm a hopeless bitch but I never gonna meet him again. Kenapa? Karena terakhir kali gue ketemu sama dia itu waktu Winter 10 years ago, di Massassuchets. I've told you that I'm a half Indonesian and American, haven't I? Yes, I am. Back to Rama, gue kenal sama dia karena his family was the only Indonesian family that my mom knew, dan yep, nyokap gue langsung deket sama keluarganya doi dan pastinya gue udah kayak madu sama lebah ke Rama. Kemana-mana bareng, sekolah kita pun sama. Sadly, gue harus pisah sama dia karena nyokap gue harus balik ke Indonesia karena nenek meninggal saat itu, and my dad decided to move here forever.
Gue inget, saat itu gue sama Rama bikin private farewell. We went to my favorite park and just hanging around until the sky was getting darker. He knew that I love night sky. Then he said, "Shin, whenever you are, don't forget me. We're always be best friends. Just like the moon to the stars." That was the best time in my life, even I don't know, does he still remember me and that night? Gue gak tau.
"Shin, Shinta? Hey? Kamu gak papa?" Gue kaget. Ternyata itu Dennis, pacar formalitas gue. Kenapa formalitas? Karena kalo gue gak jadian sama dia, bisa abis gue dikejar cowok gak jelas satu kampus. Males banget.
"Oh, yes I'm fine." I said, daripada ribet ntar urusannya.
"I just make sure that you're okay, dear. Want some gelatos?"
"I'd be happy to have it with you."
Dennis, kakak tingkat persis diatas gue. Pinter, gantengnya sampe bikin cewek satu kampus benci sama gue, jago ngedrum, dan bisa banget bikin gue gak bosen dan bingung nyari alesan buat putus. You guys must be want to slap me uh? Well make it simple. I don't love him. Why? Ah, don't ask me. He won't get into this vacancy until Rama set it free. Wait, wait the hell am I thinking?
"Kamu kok jadi sering ngelamun sih akhir-akhir ini, Hon? Cerita dong sama aku." Oh God, lagi-lagi Dennis membuyarkan lamunanku.
"I said, I'm okay. There's nothing to worry about, Den. Sorry kalo bikin kamu bingung."
"Iya gak papa. I just want you to know that I'm always here for you and I love you anyway." Okay, this guy totally knows how to make me melts.
I answered, "I know." With my smile in the end. Gak tau harus ngerespon apalagi tiap diginiin Dennis.
Jalanan Jakarta-Bandung hari ini bersahabat banget. Bingung gue, kok bisa sesepi ini. Apa lagi ngikutin hati gue kali ya? Cih, bahasa gue. Eventhough I love airports and its situation, gue benci saat perjalanan. It makes me think, and I hate myself when I'm in it. Di jalan itu bikin gue flashback, bikin gue mikir, am I good enough? Dan tetek bengek lainnya. Rama pun jadi masuk di pikiran gue. Sakit jiwa.
Hi pals. I'm writing this post because I was feeling like want to hear Hanya Isyarat by Dewi Lestari, and suddenly I remember that months ago I wanted to review one of my favorite novelette from my favorite Indonesian's writer. Yep, she sang that song too, Dewi Lestari.
That's the first cover edition. The very first time I knew this book was years ago when one of its song "Malaikat Juga Tahu" released years ago. I kinda love the song, and I knew that it's taken from this book.
Anyway, Rectoverso is a mixture between music and literature. There's 11 short stories and every story has a song. The difference between the song and the story is its view point. For example, "Curhat Buat Sahabat", the story is from the male's view point and for the song is vice versa.
Since I read Perahu Kertas, I started to love Dee's way of writing. Then I bought Partikel, and collected all of Supernova series, next, my cousin gave me Filosofi Kopi. The fourth one that I bought was Madre. Exactly, the last was Rectoverso. What? Why? Yes, because I was curious about it when I knew that it'd have a movie too. Since I'm pretty disappointed with Perahu Kertas, I was kinda like wanted to know how the directors made this movie. So I bought the novelette first. Here, the cover of the book.
I absolutely love the design. Too deep, for me. After I bought it, I read it a bit then I downloaded the songs. I couldn't describe my feeling when I first listened to it. To be honest, I was at my lowest point when I heard and read em hahahaha. Alright, back to the point. The first song that I fell in love with is.. "Hanya Isyarat". It's just so deep, even too deep. It describes all my feelings. I was in tears. Then I read the story. The second one that I love is "Aku Ada". It's too beautiful. I mean, I don't know how Dee could be so understand my feeling hahaha. Yes. I've said the reason why I can say that. The last story that I love is "Cicak di Dinding", then again the story is still about unrequited love, well.. For others, I like it.
For the movie, here's the poster.
The one I like best is "Malaikat Juga Tahu". For me, it's perfect. The male lead actor, Lukman Sardi, as always, stunning. The soundtrack is beautifully sang by Glenn Fredly. Btw, the movie is an omnibus one. So it has 5 different story and also soundtrack. The next story is "Firasat" with Asmirandah and Dwi Sasono as its main characters. I'm a bit confused with this one actually, because I thought that the Firasat club is more fun not all that pathetic and quite, and how the story ends. But, still good. Raisa sang the movie soundtrack at her best. Then, Curhat Buat Sahabat is the lightest one between them all, and maybe everyone already had the same story. Acha Septriasa is good at it. Tohpati arranged the music pretty magnificent. After that, "Cicak di Dinding". I love how Yama Carlos act. Sophia Latjuba make everything light and sexy. Dira Sugandi made this movie greater. The last but not least, "Hanya Isyarat". The new rising star, Amanda Soekasah brought it good. But for me, I'm quite disappointed because I kinda expected more from her. Drew's arrangement is pretty good.
I know it's been awhile since I wrote my latest post before this.
I'm fine now. With some changes that I've to make for my own good because days get rough and harder. But I'm totally grateful for everything now ‒the best family I have, some best friends that always support me, couldn't ask for more.
I'm in hiatus haha no, I didn't have a chance to open you because of my laziness and holiday thingy and school things yeah stuff like that.
I promise you I'm gonna post my vacation trip on the last holiday, and some other things hehe.
btw, have I told you that I'm one of Dewi Lestari's fans? yes! one of her books, Rectoverso will be in cinemas this Valentine. I'm beyond excited! gonna give you the trailer's link soon!