July 21, 2013

Journey

Here I am, sitting on the car and going back to the city that I hate the most, Bandung. Where those heaps of bitter memories grew, meanwhile everybody loves that city's atmosphere. 

Panggil gue Shinta,19 tahun, petite looking, memasuki semester ketiga di salah satu perguruan tinggi terkemuka di Bandung, every guy would die to date me, what else do you want me to explain? I have everything. Wait, everything? I don't know. 

Tiba-tiba gue kangen sama suasana di bandara. I guess only me who's curious about every airports in the world and gladly want to go there. Pertama kali gue pergi abroad, the first airport that I'm amazed is Changi. And another reason why I love airports is the people's enthusiasm to go somewhere over the world. Dan juga, tempat dimana gue pisah sama sahabat masa kecil gue, Rama. 

You guys might think, Rama&Shinta? Yes, gue tau kalo itu dari cerita wayang Ramayana atau apalah itu. Tapi, cerita gue sama Rama gak se-romantis dan penuh perjuangan itu juga kali. Well, sounds like I'm a hopeless bitch but I never gonna meet him again. Kenapa? Karena terakhir kali gue ketemu sama dia itu waktu Winter 10 years ago, di Massassuchets. I've told you that I'm a half Indonesian and American, haven't I? Yes, I am. Back to Rama, gue kenal sama dia karena his family was the only Indonesian family that my mom knew, dan yep, nyokap gue langsung deket sama keluarganya doi dan pastinya gue udah kayak madu sama lebah ke Rama. Kemana-mana bareng, sekolah kita pun sama. Sadly, gue harus pisah sama dia karena nyokap gue harus balik ke Indonesia karena nenek meninggal saat itu, and my dad decided to move here forever. 

Gue inget, saat itu gue sama Rama bikin private farewell. We went to my favorite park and just hanging around until the sky was getting darker. He knew that I love night sky. Then he said, "Shin, whenever you are, don't forget me. We're always be best friends. Just like the moon to the stars." That was the best time in my life, even I don't know, does he still remember me and that night? Gue gak tau. 

"Shin, Shinta? Hey? Kamu gak papa?" Gue kaget. Ternyata itu Dennis, pacar formalitas gue. Kenapa formalitas? Karena kalo gue gak jadian sama dia, bisa abis gue dikejar cowok gak jelas satu kampus. Males banget. 
"Oh, yes I'm fine." I said, daripada ribet ntar urusannya. 
"I just make sure that you're okay, dear. Want some gelatos?" 
"I'd be happy to have it with you." 
Dennis, kakak tingkat persis diatas gue. Pinter, gantengnya sampe bikin cewek satu kampus benci sama gue, jago ngedrum, dan bisa banget bikin gue gak bosen dan bingung nyari alesan buat putus. You guys must be want to slap me uh? Well make it simple. I don't love him. Why? Ah, don't ask me. He won't get into this vacancy until Rama set it free. Wait, wait the hell am I thinking?

"Kamu kok jadi sering ngelamun sih akhir-akhir ini, Hon? Cerita dong sama aku." Oh God, lagi-lagi Dennis membuyarkan lamunanku. 
"I said, I'm okay. There's nothing to worry about, Den. Sorry kalo bikin kamu bingung."
"Iya gak papa. I just want you to know that I'm always here for you and I love you anyway." Okay, this guy totally knows how to make me melts. 
I answered, "I know." With my smile in the end. Gak tau harus ngerespon apalagi tiap diginiin Dennis. 

Jalanan Jakarta-Bandung hari ini bersahabat banget. Bingung gue, kok bisa sesepi ini. Apa lagi ngikutin hati gue kali ya? Cih, bahasa gue. Eventhough I love airports and its situation, gue benci saat perjalanan. It makes me think, and I hate myself when I'm in it. Di jalan itu bikin gue flashback, bikin gue mikir, am I good enough? Dan tetek bengek lainnya. Rama pun jadi masuk di pikiran gue. Sakit jiwa. 

--to be continued. 


N. 



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